This feeling is so hard to explain but i need help, its about love?

I seriously need help, I am listening to deep intense music and the feeling i am getting is one i get often but its so strong and is unfortunately undescribable. i am 17 and not like many other girls, still a virgin by choice, could have had many boyfriends but refuse them, is seen as attractive and intelligent, i turn people down because i long for that true love and unless i know that person will give me that i don't let me guard down. i need someone so bad, its not even out of desperation, it's that i long for someone to share my beautiful things with (meaning personality) i am going out of my mind. i'll think of certain guys and just go weak in the knees because i want them but am too shy to talk to them unless they talk to me first. do i just want pionate love or am i just psycho?